Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Tears in Baby Hats

There was an ancient practice of catching your tears of grief in a vessel when someone died. When it was time to bury or cremate that person your vessel of tears would go with that person. This past year I cried all of my tears in to baby hats.

In February of last year my husband and I found out we were expecting. We had only been trying for a couple of weeks and I was pregnant. We were excited about having our dreams come so soon, and at the same time frightened at expanding our family and change. Within a week of finding out I started having complications. It came about that our precious little one was an ectopic pregnancy.  The doctors were never able to locate were my baby decided to grow, but it was not where it should have been, so it was only growing at 5 % instead of 100 %. My husband and I had to make the decision to end my pregnancy. At 11 weeks into making dreams and a new family I took a shot that would end all those dreams.  Then for another 11 weeks I had to go to the doctor and get my blood taken to watch my pregnancy numbers go back down to 0.

During all of this time I was crocheting. I was so excited to start making things for my new little one. I started making hats, sweaters, little booties. When we found out we would not be able to keep the baby I could not bring myself to stop. When the grief became overwhelming I would get out my hook and I would make a hat, some days that hat would turn into three hats. Often times I could not even see what I was making for the tears that were dropping on to the hat. After three months I had two under the bed totes full of baby hats, diaper covers, booties, and sweaters. After that time I found I did not have to go to my hook so often to shed my tears.

Now that a year has passed I am down to just one tote. Some of the hats have been given to friends. Some have gone to a local hospital. And I have even sold some.  

I wanted to tell you dear friends how much those hats mean to me. I have poured my dreams and prayers into those hats and I pray that the baby that fills them will grow big and strong and that they will be cherished and loved. When I give you a hat or other crochet items, I’m not just giving you something to keep you warm I am giving you something that has been saturated in prayer and thought for you and even sometimes tears.

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Twists and Bows Cowl

I am on a roll; two patterns in one week. This is to make up for my lack of adding much during the summer.
My concept for this cowl came when I was looking at this sweater on anthropology. I was intrigued by the open spaces between the cables and I had to try it out with crochet. When I started the pattern I was pleased to find out that it looked great from both sides of the fabric. That means this pattern had to be made into a cowl to show off both sides of the work.
This Pattern has been Moved Here!

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Girl Power Back Pack

 I have a new pattern to share. I was wanting to get this one out before school started but I'm a few days late. This bag was a lot of fun. And my Daughter has enjoyed having something that Mama made her. Inspiration for this bag was obviously my daughter. When she wanted to ride her bike and bring her sand toys to the play ground she could not carry them so I came up with this bag so she could bring her toys with her to the park. It is made out of cotton so when it gets dirty you can just throw it in the washing machine. and because of the holes sand does not have to stay in the bag.
 Because of the pentagon's shape the middle of the bag is wider than other parts so you can fit more stuff in it.
Now you are probably wondering, "well where is the pattern?" I have decided to start selling my patterns for more than just pennies I get from the advertizing on my blog. We will see what the difference is.

*edit: there was no difference. You can find the free pattern here.